May 19th.
Somehow, 5 months has turned itself into 1 day. It's so hard to see this semester come to a close. It came and went so fast, and now it's time to repack my life for the past 5 months into a suitcase, and a backpack, and board the plane headed back to the states.
We have finished our exams for the University of Valladolid, we have celebrated our graduation, and I have started packing up to leave tomorrow morning for Madrid's airport. It seems like just last week we arrived in the airport, sheepishly standing at the luggage claim, helping to make sure everybody got their own luggage. At that point, we all barely knew each other, but throughout the course of the semester, we've all grown separately while at the same time, growing together. I've learned that when you study abroad, and are thrown into such a unique situation, you make friends REALLY fast. We all have to learn to open up and become good friends in a short time, because we all at some point need someone to lean on, someone to help us when we miss home, and someone to share in all of our wonderful memories together. I've made some wonderful friends being here in Spain, both Spaniards and Americans. It's going to be hard leaving.
Stepping on the plane tomorrow, I'm going to be experiencing by far the most bittersweet moment of my life. I've never felt such tumultuous feelings within me before. I'm so thrilled to go home, to see my family, to hug my parents, and to see all those wonderful people I love and hold so close to my heart. But at the same time, being here has forced me to grow, it has changed my outlook on life, it has instilled within me a passion for traveling, and it's taught me to be grateful for every experience I have in life. In 138 days, I've been able to see 2 continents, 3 countries, 30 cities, and I've traveled 21,068 miles. This has been an experience I will never forget. I have been so fortunate to study abroad to open my mind to foreign cultures and customs. While I've been here, I have learned so much here that I will carry with me towards my future, and I won't be leaving without leaving a part of my heart here.
One famous guy once said, "To travel is better than to arrive"...I used to think there was just one path to take to get where you want to be in life. But if you choose that path, it doesn't mean you have to bail on all the other ones. I realized that it is actually what happens along the way that counts: the triumphs, the falls, and the friendships. You just have to trust the people and the future that it will work itself out like it's supposed to. From here on out, where ever life takes me, I vow to go with all my heart, soul and being. Because it's the journey, not the destination.
Not only is the fact that the semester is ending hard to grasp, but for me, the fact that tomorrow, I will be closing a 5 year long chapter of my life is even more difficult to understand. Tomorrow, I will officially finish my 5 years of my undergraduate studies. And to be honest, I have no other feelings right now, other than it feels done. It feels closed. And darn, does it feel good. I have to say, looking back on the past 5 years, I'm extremely proud of what I've done, and who I have become. College has shaped me into who I am, the people I have met will be lifelong friends, and they've definitely helped me find "me" along the way. Even though this chapter of my life is closing, I know I will carry the past 5 years with me where ever I go in life. There are so many more blank pages in my book, I can't wait to see where they take me. I've found a family during my time at Stevens Point, and when I officially leave, you can be sure I will leave a piece of my heart there, as well.
And now, with this final entry, I finish my semester abroad in Spain. It has truly been a breathtaking experience. The whole 5 months of it. And it's opened my eyes to the world in a way they've never been opened before, and for that, I will be eternally grateful.
Spain, you hold a piece of my heart. I will be back someday to visit.
For the last time:
besos y abrazos,
Erin
"You get a strange feeling when you're about to leave a
place...like you'll not only miss the people you love but you'll
miss the person you are now at this time and this place, because you'll never
be this way ever again."